I am still dealing with this stupid plateau. I’m 32 lbs closer to my goal weight and I have been stuck at my current weight for about three weeks. I know I’m supposed to be all Zen right now and it’s not about numbers on a scale but about being healthy and changing my life. I know all this. I tell myself this every time I step on the scale and see those same three numbers, silently mocking me. But here I am, super frustrated, and using all my might to refuse the Milano cookies they have out in the open here in my office. I keep hearing that sometimes when you plateau is because your body has reached the weight it’s supposed to be. I don’t know; that seems unlikely. I know stressing about weight is also not helping because stress can impede weight loss. What annoys me is that I understand all that but I’m still obsessing about this. A lot. Why is it that my brain refuses to get with the program and a) keeps making me stressed and b) keeps making me crave comfort food that I shouldn’t be having?
It isn’t merely the plateau issue; I have this fear of not measuring up. I look at other WLS patient’s progress blogs and I feel like I should be farther along in my weight loss, like I’m not enough of a success, isn’t that ridiculous? Even Mark was telling me last night that it seems like I just try to look for things to make myself feel bad about my progress. It’s a struggle but I’m trying to change my attitude around and trying to focus on what I’ve done instead of what I have left to do.
How about you? Do you sometimes feel like you’re not measuring up? How do you handle self-doubt?